Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Today seems very off, especially at school...

Long story short: 
I got into a big argument with a friend today during Gym class.

The story with details:
Ok first you have to know that me and friends (kyllie and kevin) love to play volleyball in our gym class and sometimes get really competitive. Especially cause there are volleyball players in our class, along with my friend Kyllie. These volleyball players and kinda get stuck up about volleyball because they see everyone as an easy win game except if they go again another time if a lot of actual volleyball players. Well even though Kyllie is on the volleyball team, the other players think she is a easy win because they see her as the weakest link (i think they don't give her enough credit, shes great).
At the beginning of school I hung out with my friend Kevin (drama queen btw) for a bit. I remember him telling me "I'm not going to change today for P.E. and I'm not gonna do volleyball either." I told him, "Aw that really sucks! you know our team is really good with all of us together." But that didn't seem to convince him. -Fast Foreword-  It's 3rd period and we are in Gym class. During our warm up Kevin didn't participate because he was on the side read for NSL class so i went up to him and asked, "are you sure you're not gonna play because our whole team works better with you." He tells me "no" and that "we'll do better without him". Then once warm ups are done our P.E. teacher calls him over and makes him play. I was thinking in my head "yay." So we start playing the game against this group with some good volleyball players. I noticed that the one guy in the opponents team was rolling his eyes at us and making expressions that to me seemed like he was thinking this team sucks, i want to just get this over with so i can verse the better team. ONce i saw that i kinda mumbled, "gosh IDK whats with me today but im getting easily irritated. Kevin just looked at me and nodded. We kept playing them and i was next to Kevin and in front of him is this girl name Liz who is getting better over time. A lot of the times where Liz did not get the ball i assumed Kevin was going to because that is how he usually is but no, today he seemed to not move very much. After a few points i decided to just give kevin a break so i said, "Kevin if you don't to put any effort in today then you can stand kinda to the side." Right then he turned around and started to you yell at me, the only sentence I remember is "YOU THINK PEOPLE ARE IRRITATING YOU TODAY!? WELL PEOPLE ARE IRRITATING ME TOO!!!" Well when people yell me my immediate reaction to let them say what they wanna say until their done which usually take like a minute or so. Kevin however continued yelling at me for what felt like a long time for me, (btw keep in mind that since before winter break i've been holding some anger in due to multiple events that have been pissing me off) so yelled back..."KEVIN STOP BITCHING AT ME!" Which made him continue yelling which i can't remember due to the fact i had so much anger that i felt like i need to focus on not doing or saying something i'll regret. I remember yelling "IT'S JUST A GAME DON'T TAKE THIS SO SERIOUSLY!"  I don't remember why i said that which now seems to me pointless to say that in this situation but i think i just said whatever popped in my head that seemed appropriate and not regretful. I also remember that the volleyball game abruptly stopped and both our team and our opponents were starting with a do you think we should try to clam them down face or continue the game!? Then i remember hearing our gym teacher start to yell out from across the room (he was on the other volleyball court) "hey hey heyyy" Then that is when kevin finally stopped yelling at me. we continued our game and the whole time i was off staring into space because i didnt want to think at all because if i did it would be thoughts of punching Kevin, i've never felt to anger before. I honestly don't get like that but i guess that was the straw that broke the camels back, and i just fought back! To make matters worst when we play a new game against a new team Kevin decides to start whispering from behind me to on of our team members about me which just pissed me off even more because i hate when people continue with things once its over and i've attempt to move on. GAHHH! I'm too blah to go on, now time for homework now that i've finally blogged that out of my system. Oh and Johnny durham's comment helped a lot too! 

Sorry for the long blog, I had a lot to get out.

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